*corazon_vida*

Waiting for me just like I’m waiting for him.

Feeling the same things I’m feeling right now,

Thinking there may never be an end to the lonliness,

The longing,

The Void that grows with each passing minute.

He’s out there,

somewhere,

Dreaming of me.

Does is it soothe———

like a soft mist dusting your neck,

cooling your shoulders,

relaxing your tensions?

Does it seize——

like an unrelenting grasp over your being,

your smiles and your tears,

your common sense and your emotions?

Does it excite—-

starting at your toes and rising to your chest,

thenb your throat where it holds its breath,

until it can’t help but scram?

Does it confuse—-

Ami supposed to feel this way?

Does he feel this way? Why does he lead me on?

What is it those eyes that makes me so flustered?

you tell me

Does every smile every glance, every chancemeeting

feel like a promise to love you back?

Not because that’s what you really think,

but because it’s what you need to think

to keep the hope of a fairy-tale romance

from fading?

Does every conversation

linger for days?

Every frame

clear but unreal

in every dreamy return?

you tell me

Does he consume your mind

day to long-awaited day

until everything has lost its original luster

when he isn’t around to charm the scene?

Does every playful poke 

make you float above cloud nine

like your rising but saying still?

Does every friendly hug

force the centers of your mouthup into a stupid grin?

Why do my knees become uselessly weak

with evey meaningless touch—-

or even when he walks within  twenty feet  

 of my ‘personal space’?

ou tell me

Does it always feel like more than just a crush or a silly infatuation

when he talks to you

just like you would imagine a soul mate would

and laughs at your jokes?

If it feels like love isn’t love

You tell me

Because what do i know about it?

I’m only a kid, right?

Heck, I’ve only been in love once or twice.

They say every picture is worth a thousand words. But is it really?? When you look at a picture, unless you weren’t there there that day(even if you were) can you picture what was happening?Second by second, minute by minute?-?-probably not.You can guess,you can wish, you can cry, smile, and even be mad but once that picture is taken(unless you delete it but even then).that moment is forever trapped in pause, every detail capured, and every emotion stored and examined by time’s harsh judgement. So even if you try,I BELEIVE, you’re——-*SPEECHLESS*!

AGE: 15

BIRTHDATE: 1/26/96

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged you are supposed to write a note with 92 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

1. last beverage : strawbwerry fanta

2. last phone call :Javy castillo Gonzalez :P

3. last text message : “I love you :P”

4. last song you listened to : who says from selena gomez :P

5. last time you cried : saturday, june 11th  :P

6. dated someone twice :nope

7. been cheated on : yep

8. kissed someone & regretted it : nope

9. lost someone special : multipple

10. been depressed : not like legit depression i suppose….but somewhat yes

11. been drunk and threw up : nope

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. red

13. turqoiuse

14.  color of fall leaves falling to the ground

LAST YEAR (2010), HAVE YOU:

15. Made a new friend : Yes

16. Fallen out of love : technically yea

17. Laughed until you cried : Yeah x) oh so many timez

18. Met someone who changed you : oh yeah….ron and javy :)

19. Found out who your true friends were : yep

20. Found out someone was talking about you : yeap…al the time beyotchez the thing iz though i dont care :P

21. Kissed anyone on your FB friend’s list : my boyfriend :P

GENERAL:

22. How many people on your FB friends list do you know in real life : all of them

24. Do you have any pets : Yep…. dog (:

25. Do you want to change your name : noperzzz :)

26. What did you do for your last birthday : went to CARRABA’S ITALLIAN GRILLE and ate cake and ice cram w/ bf and friendz :D

27. What time did you wake up today : 8:00

28. What were you doing at midnight last night : deff. reading a book :P

29. Something you look forward to: CALIFORNIA AND TAHOE ( and my wedding)!!!

30. Last time you saw your Mother : like five secondz ago :P

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life : how complicated it is :P

32. What are you listening to right now: enrique iglesias - on top of you :P

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom? : nope :D

34. What’s getting on your nerves right now : fake people

35. Most visited webpage :youtube.com ( music iz my life !!!)

37. Nickname: too many to type :P

38. Relationship Status : Taken :P

39. Zodiac sign : Aquarius (wat can i say i go w/ the flow) :P

40. He or She : she

41. Elementary : big shanty,piitner, and baker Elementary (:

42. High School : kell

43. College : hopefully in ga!!!!

44. Hair color: Dark Brown 

45. Long or short : short :P

46. Height : 5’1 1/4! (:

47. Do you have a crush on someone? : yes :P

48. What do you like about yourself? : my soul (:

49. Piercings : ears and hopefully belly button

50. Tattoo : nope :P

51. Righty or lefty : RIGHTY

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery : tonsils- kindergarden

53. First piercing : My ears-1 yrz

54. First best friend : abigail chavez (:

55: First time spent together: church and school

56. First vacation : California

RIGHT NOW:

59. Eating :  nothing! :P

60. Drinking : mexican soda -fresa(strawberry)

61. I’m about to : call my bf!

62. Listening to : T. mills and Enrique iglesias :P

63. Waiting for :  nothing like ronald! :P

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids? :2 or 3

65. Get Married? : sure am :P

66. Career? : Ultrasound technician:P

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes : eyes

68. Hugs or kisses : kisses

69. Shorter or taller : shorter 4 gurlz & taller 4 guyz

70. Older or Younger : dependz.

71. Romantic or spontaneous : BOTH

72. Nice stomach or nice arms :  ??? idk :P

73. Sensitive or loud : BOTH

74. Hook-up or relationship : Relationship.

75. Trouble maker or hesitant : trouble maker ….sometimes im in the mood 4 a bad boi

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger :basically

77. Drank hard liquor : yep :P

78. Lost glasses/contacts : yep! :P

79. Sex on first date : no no no!!!! :P

80. Broke someone’s heart : not meaning to

81. Had your own heart broken: yepperz

82. Been arrested : No, and I hope to never be arrested.

83. Turned someone down : alot

84. Cried when someone died: Definitely.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself : Yes.

87. Miracles : Yes.

88. Love at first sight : yes 

89. Heaven : Yes.

90. Santa Claus : nope

91. Kiss on the first date : It all depends. 

92. Angels : Yes.

-Love can have its own reasons for thingsthat we know nothing about at the time they are happening.

-Love is a great teacher……You will never lose at love if you always ask what it is teaching you, and you listen very -carefully when it answers

-Love, it is very disorganized.

-There is a first time for everything.

-First crush, first love, first relationship, e.t.c.

-I hated this Guy, he was such a creep, but my friend liked him and begged me to give him another chance, as a friend, so i did(story)

-illustrate theexperience of love.

-All the different feelings that arise when one is in love are hard to define.

-It is a mystery why we fall in love, it is a mystery how it happens.

-Life itself is something more than the sum of the bones and muscles and electrical impulses in the body.

-They want answers where there are no answers.

-Love and except it.

-There is nothing wrong with you, Love just didnt choose to rest in the other person’s heart.

-Do not take advantage, do not cause pain.

-Remeber that you don’t choose love, love chooses you.

-Give love back to the person who brought it aqlive in you.

-Give love to the world around you in any wy you can.

{Remember this and keep it in your heart, love has its own time, its own season, and its own reasons. If you keep your heart open, love will come again.} 

I started to put down my apearence, Wishing i was thinner or taller. She lookd at me with understanding eyes, Saying: “Superficail wishes only make you smaller.” I knew she was right, but who was she to talk, For she was every guy’s dream. I tried to point out to her, She replied ” Appereances aren’t always what they seem.”

“tell me five features you admire in yourself,” she said,

 And i knew my troubles had just begun, For i could see the hurt in her expression, When i couldn’t think of one.

I could not think of a single Feature i liked, And i could feel my stomach slowly start to sinl. So i turned to my friend and simply said “Well what do you think?”

“I think you got it all wrong,” she said “And i wish i could make it clearer. It’s what’s inside you that makes you beautiful, And not what can be seen in the mirror.”

She said ” You are the most loving person i know, and i hate to watch you fall apart. If you want to know what makes you beutiful to me, Your best feature is you heart.”